A couple nights ago I was awakened at 4 a.m. by overwhelming Guilt.
I should explain that I’m not one to feel a lot of guilt like I did when I was younger and my life was a mess. And of course, I credit that to my amazing Father who has spent several years showing me my heavenly Identity in detail which resolves mountains of personal issues right there.
But this Guilt was a mountain. Did I say I was overwhelmed? I was. And it was, of course, accompanied by fear. Fear comes along to threaten us with repercussions of our guilt. Continue reading MY OVERNIGHT IN THE COURTS
Mesmerized by the lavishness of her gown and ring, Anna turned to Lucius for answers. However, he wasn’t talking. He was simply leaning against the gate looking into her eyes with such tenderness that she wondered if he could see into her soul.
She couldn’t look away. Why did his eyes seem to dance and sparkle in the sun? How was it that rainbows of color played in their irises?
Embarrassed that she was staring at him, and confused that she couldn’t ask him a simple question without losing her train of thought, Anna turned to the boys with the dog. They were a welcome distraction that warmed her heart.
As they sat cross-legged on the grassy lawn, the boys tossed a yellow ball into the air. Over and over the ball went up and the dog would jump and snatch it in mid-air. He was quite good at his trick which made Lucius laugh and Anna smile in amazement. Continue reading THE CASTLE, part three
In a place of silence and peace, I can hear Father speaking to me and the conversation becomes very intimate. That’s because He knows every thought I have, often better than I know myself.
Sometimes we humans have unacknowledged thoughts and reactions hidden in foggy imprints from the past. These are impressions we never told anyone and barely noticed ourselves. Continue reading INTIMATE SECRETS
Someone I love said something cruel to me today and I didn’t respond. I let them walk away and I didn’t run to a corner with a sob. I didn’t chase them down and confront them. Without emotion, I wondered if my heart was hard. I wasn’t wounded and out of control. But I also had no clue. I said “Help me here, Jesus. Help me with this situation.” He immediately gave me a message and a vision.
The message was “Ignore it. Don’t give it attention. Walk back into the relationship as though nothing ever happened, but see it this way.” The vision was of a continued relationship in love without cruel, bad behavior. The disappearance of bad behavior wasn’t the result of confrontation or discussion but because I didn’t believe in it. It wasn’t Truth. It wasn’t how Father created this person. Therefore it was a LIE. So I called it a LIE and refused to accept it as part of them. Continue reading CRUEL, BAD BEHAVIOR
Recently, I ran across a little book I wrote 20 years ago which I had named “Sometimes God Works Backwards”. It reopened some not-so-happy memories about a brother’s attempt to bring me in front of a group for reprimand. That group was never convened because the others saw my story as a testimony, albeit extremely controversial one. Therefore, they advised me to keep it to myself, and not share it further, which I have done. Continue reading My Little Book Revealed