Years ago, I got a new job that required I walk through a very scary building twice a day. Since the light bulbs were out, I submitted an order for those to be changed, but that took a few days. Meantime, I had to go through the building.
Friends told me to forget it until the lights were fixed, but I felt compelled because it was my responsibility. So, I searched for comfort through the Christian concept of memorizing scripture.
The verse I chose was: “God has not given me a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a strong mind” 2 Timothy 1:7, and I mumbled it over and over until I had it memorized. Then I said it over and over while I ran through the building twice a day.
Did it work? Did the fear go away? Not really, but it gave me something to focus on besides fear, and my mouth something to do other than screaming.
And gradually I learned some things from that verse.
#1 – it said I wasn’t crazy. Even though I was convinced that this experience and my life in general was literally going over the edge, God said in this scripture that I wasn’t crazy. He said I had a strong mind. But my self-image needed lots of repair so I began saying the verse repeatedly while I put on my make-up every morning.
#2 – it said God gave me power. Since I hadn’t felt one ounce of power during the chaos of my life, this was a revelation I desperately wanted to absorb. So, I began saying the verse during my lunch and breaks.
#3 – it said I had love. I didn’t feel like I had any but God said I had love. So, that meant it came from Him, not me. Therefore, that should make a difference. And amazingly it did. I began looking at my customer’s differently, through eyes of love, and finding ways to lighten their load. It was a real eye-opener to discover I could be a blessing, a real asset in people’s lives.
And yes, I gradually stopped being afraid of the building, and of life.