Jesus asked Peter “Who do they say that I am?”  And now Father was asking me, “Describe yourself to me.  Who are you?”  It was almost the same question.

Instantly, I remembered the visions of my gown, my crown, my accessories, and gifts.   But I still think of myself as an individual. And apparently, I see that individual loved and accessorized by Father God.  But not deserving of the same answer Peter had given Jesus.  “You are the Christ.”

The word Christ generally means anointed one, or chosen one. And of course, we often think of it as meaning ‘Messiah’. So, of course, I couldn’t envision myself as the Messiah. But I also don’t see myself as Anointed or Chosen.

Even though Jesus lives within me, I still struggle with Identity. My gown and my crown and accessories are unique and surprising. I’m still wrapping my mind around that appearance.

And now He wants to know how I see myself fully?  

I remember Psalms 139:14.

“Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
    Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
    as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
 You saw me before I was born.
    Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
    before a single day had passed.

 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
    They cannot be numbered!
 I can’t even count them;
    they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
    you are still with me!”

Psalms 139:14-18 NLT

Yes, I see His marvelous work in me and I’m amazed.  But how should I answer?  Is there anything still remaining in me that is not worthy of Him?  Do I still see myself that way? Hasn’t He covered me completely?  Aren’t my imperfections made perfect in Him?

Do I want to ask Him who He says I am?  Do I dare ask Father as King David did, to test my heart and see my thoughts?

It’s a daunting question and Christians often say they could never ask it.  But why not?

Who else could answer that question? Me? That doesn’t seem right. How can I assume that my estimation of myself is the same as His? His thoughts are far above mine. And if I’m not what Father wants me to be, then how can I ever be?  It’s not like I’m capable of making myself perfect. If I could, I’d have done so years ago.

It seems to me that if He lives inside me, my perfection is only a job He can accomplish.

So, I did it. I asked Father to check my heart.  It took quite a bit of courage. But I figured that if He damned me to hell for it, then I wasn’t much worse off than I was before. And it certainly wasn’t going to get any better through my fumbling around.

Besides, during all our conversations, His assessments are always positive.  His judgment is always amazing and full of more love than I’ve ever known.  It’s always better than I could ever assess myself.

Plus, His words always have an added benefit. They seem to lift me higher, advance me further, and fill me up with His Love.

I honestly prefer His judgments over my own … or anyone else’s.  They are always full of Life and give my heart so much joy.

There are a million labels and pigeon-holes floating freely from people’s mouths and opinions.   They freely assail our eyes and ears causing damage and destruction.

So, I’d rather hear Father’s opinion.  It’s the only one that leads me toward fulfillment, and yes, perfection.

His thoughts of me are precious and innumerable.  It’s time to believe them.


5 thoughts on “WHO DO THEY SAY THAT I AM?”

  1. And “blessed are you when people persecute you and revile you for My name’s sake”. I just did not realize the persecution might come from fellow “believers”. Keep on living up to your pen name, Faith! You’ve blessed and edified me so much already. I’m glad you were able to chuckle…that is such an awesome gift of peace from Him.

  2. All I can say is I’m so thankful that God provides me with a Rose Rock to dwell in with Him. It really is a good thing when we relish Him testing our hearts. <3

  3. i have only this to say…many more people will be touched by Rose Rock as i was…to the others, it’s truly their loss…i’m sorry that christians tear each other down and don’t open their hearts to what daddy is saying…
    trust who’s love is Great, trust in Him…he’s brought you this far, He knows how far you’re going…other’s will not enjoy the ride because of their ignorance…sad, but true…
    you have a beautiful relationship with God, treasure it, it’s precious and valuable.
    and may i stand in for those who lack appreciation and say, thank you for Rose Rock, thank you for your obedience and your dedication to Him…you’ve touched my heart and i heard daddy’s voice through your book…
    rejoice daughter, Daddy delights in you…well done

  4. I just finished reading The Kingdom of God at Rose Rock and I can’t begin to tell you how it has helped my view of God. No longer will He be the angry man in the sky waiting to beat me over the head with a big stick. Thank you so much for writing this book! I just ordered two paperback copies from Barnes and Noble. I can’t wait to share this with others!! One other thing, how I long to know Father God like you do.

    1. I’m so thrilled to hear your reaction! It’s an awesome thing to know Father as He really is. I recommend it. I may be posting an article about how I began hearing His voice. Blessings, Cindy!

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