Category Archives: loving community





Yep, it’s true … someone laughed at me.  On my birthday no less! Even during my birthday celebration! A friend picked out one of my character traits and laughed.

And I laughed too.  It’s what you do.



Later, when the party was over and quiet time came, there was still a tiny arrow stuck in my heart and I contemplated it.  Then I asked Father about tiny arrows. Are we to blame that some stick?  Is it a flaw that this was hurting a bit?  I don’t count myself easily offended.  But am I?

And Father immediately responded.  “It’s not about you at all. It’s about her.  Remember when you were a teenager and made fun of a boy during lunch one day?  You actually liked him a lot and wanted his attention.  But you didn’t know how to get it.  Remember?”

“What are you telling me, Father?  She wants my attention?”


“Yes, she does.  She doesn’t get any at home.  And you get lots of attention because Hunny is vintagedevoted to you.  She made that statement too.  So, yes, she’s envious, but it’s more than that.  She wants YOUR attention.  It might be better than actually being you.  Isn’t that why popular girls in school have other girls surrounding them?  Getting the popular girl’s attention is like sharing her shiny identity with her.

But because the popular life might be too much to handle … it’s better to simply have her attention, instead.



Suddenly that blazing light bulb shone brightly over my head and the arrow melted away.  I could see so clearly now.

I might not think of myself as the popular girl, or anyone to be envied.  But perceptions have a reason for existing in each one of us.  And there was certainly a reason for hers.

No promise of love exists in her home, even after 28 years together.  Sometimes lovers,  and sometimes friends, they resent the familiarity and convenience that glues them together.  Abuse littered her life previously.  So, having none now is a blessing.  And she counts herself lucky for finding a haven of peace.


Father says to bless our enemy’s and even though she wasn’t one, her words had taken that form.  And now I understood that she could use all the blessings I could possibly pour out on her.

So, I wrote her a note to thank her for coming to my celebration and to express how glad I am that we are friends.


I asked Father to bless her like He did another unloved woman, Leah.carriage

In Genesis 29, Leah was unloved and because of it, Father blessed her with babies.

My friend is past the age of wanting babies, but Father knows how to translate that blessing appropriately.

And I trust that He will.



It’s obvious that this incident doesn’t describe every situation when someone might laugh or ridicule us.  But once again, Father made His point.

He knows everything about every situation.  And I must come to Him to learn the Truth.



Thank you for sharing this journey with me.  I send blessings on the way for yours.







There are obvious and not-so-obvious stages of maturity in The Kingdom.  And they cause a lot of friction because we are looking for unity of the faith and expect to see it inside our doctrines.

But that can’t happen when our faith is such a uniquely personal thing to each of us.  After all, we created denominations so that like-minded people would worship together, and still the understanding within each member is different.

No one is the same.  We grow at different rates and in different directions. Continue reading OUR STAGES OF MATURITY and ELITISM





I had a dream about the aftermath of my battle with religion.

I was in an abandoned section of the house where I live. It was like an attached apartment. In the kitchen was a lot of canned and packaged food sitting on a big table inside the oversized pantry. A visitor came through, someone I knew, and he needed dinner for his family. I invited him to help himself and he chose 3 items that would make a complete meal for him and his family. He was pleased and I was happy that I could be generous.

After he left, I began going through the apartment shadow boxing evil entities as I saw them. I’d say out loud “Ka-pow! Ka-pow!” as I punched them. And they were cleared out one at a time. After they were gone, there was movement in the corner which I attributed to Angels and let them be. Continue reading SABBATICAL FROM THE BATTLE




IMAGINE your coronation to your throne inside The Kingdom.  The Bible mentions us being kings and priests before our God.  So wouldn’t that mean there was a moment of coronation?  And wouldn’t it probably be later in our relationship with Father and not at the beginning when we first believed?  Certainly, a newborn heir is considered royalty but is not yet a crowned monarch.

An heir is crowned when they have learned the techniques of ruling and reigning.  It has everything to do with maturity and availability.  And in The Kingdom of God, that ruling and reigning would logically encompass the ability to govern what is created.  Wouldn’t it? Jesus said that He does what He sees the Father doing.  So what does the Father do?  What are His capabilities?  Doesn’t He create and care for His creation? Continue reading YOUR CORONATION INTO THE KINGDOM


Cause and effect


Let’s talk about Cause and Effect.  And maybe about Gravity, too.

It’s true I don’t take cause and effect very seriously anymore. After all the years of miracles and favor and such, I don’t expect everything that goes UP, must come DOWN.

For instance, for every financial mistake I make, I don’t have to live in financial hardship. For every virus I contract, I don’t have to be sick. Continue reading CAUSE AND EFFECT, and Gravity



family trouble


Family trouble is heartbreaking enough, but when I was facing another visit from them, Father showed me a different way to pray. It involved understanding that I have a kingdom. He’s shown me this scenario several times now. Continue reading WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH FAMILY TROUBLE?


fruit of words


One of my neighbors shared with me, that this town, community, and the area is filled with evil, hateful, disgusting people and it’s a horrible place to live. I was shocked, like a deer in the headlights, but she calmly maintained that everything she felt was the only truth.

I said that I was living the polar opposite and that I love this place and everyone here. Continue reading EATING THE FRUIT OF OUR WORDS




It’s true there are Christians who behave like bullies.  Some bullies are not aware they are bullying.  Other bullies are taught to be bullies by their churches and bible schools under the guise of debate.

One Christian brother told me that he learned debate techniques in a School of Ministry which practiced aggressively, combative techniques.  “I sliced and diced with my tongue, winning all but one of those debates” he told me. Continue reading CHRISTIAN BULLIES ARE AMONG US

Viewpoints: from a Police Officer

my visit with a police officer


I took the opportunity to visit with a cop for a while the other day.  His name and other details will be kept confidential, but his story should be heard.

He was gentle, and kind although his voice was subdued with sadness, or hopelessness.  I didn’t know which.  He dreamt of being a cop as a child, and that dream solidified as a young adult when he witnessed an officer help a young couple calmly through the angry emotions of an ending relationship.  The officer disarmed their need for retaliation, and planted a seed in the heart of the young man to help others in chaos, to be a peacemaker. Continue reading Viewpoints: from a Police Officer



This topic is so important that I’m not going to spend a lot of time prepping you.  I’m going to tell you what just happened, what Father told me, and then I’m going to pray for you.

I know you’re frustrated because these shootings keep happening.  It’s time to stop responding to evil the same way, again and again.  It’s not working.  It’s time to step into The Kingdom and do this Father’s way. Continue reading HOW TO PRAY FOR POLICE OFFICERS