Today I was reminded how so many good church-goers have embraced silence. They label questioning seekers as troublemakers and find great comfort in the status quo. It’s called unity.
But that unity is a prison of hypocrisy where the mind and heart are silenced without free expression. And a smiling mask is worn to cover a dying soul.
Father never created a human heart that didn’t crave more. And it is only silenced through fear. The biggest one being Rejection.
No one ever wants to be rejected. It is the most painful thing we do to each other. And yet all the best churches teach how to properly and lovingly reject others as though it is a cooking class meant to make your meals better than you’ve ever known.
Rejection is a dark evil Jesus never used even when He hung on a cross dying.
And it’s hard to find the courage to defy Rejection and step out of the box where we can ask all the questions our mind can produce. It takes tremendous endurance when the doors of Judgment and Rejection begin slamming in our face.
THIS is where we take up our cross and follow HIM. THIS is the persecution that can commit murder.
But if you are a questioning seeker, you aren’t alone. There are many. They are often hiding from the status quo because they haven’t found their courage yet.
I didn’t find it until many years after I moved away from home. And even then it was slow progress.
One of the most awe-inspiring things about Jesus is getting a glimpse of the courage He had. It was nothing less than God-like. Oh, wait, He was God. 😁
Stepping out to rock the boat on the religious status quo is still one of the most frightening and dangerous things anyone can ever do. The resulting assault on your faith and your character is the greatest evil that human beings display.
It’s all about fear. And if we don’t find the courage to face fear and become free, we can find ourselves crucifying our own Messiah.
About 18 months ago, I shared a declaration I made in my Kingdom, that no Police Officers would be shot and killed in my state of Colorado.
That declaration stood strong, until just a few days ago, when the first Officer in my beloved state, passed into eternity from a shooting.
My heart felt like it stopped. And I stood in the dark space of eternity and asked Father why. Continue reading RULING AND REIGNING – AND FAILURE
I began writing 5 easy steps to being un-offendable when I realized that I don’t believe in steps. They’re formulas and formulas are an act of striving to change ourselves using our own minuscule power. It’s extremely hard work and seldom succeeds.
So, I scrapped most of what I wrote and voted for telling you the story of the first time I decided to stop being offended.
It happened when Hunny and I were dating and we had a fight because he said something that offended me. It was happening frequently because he’s an outspoken man and rarely beats around the bush.
But this time he said, “Look, this isn’t going to work if you keep getting offended. First off, I’m not going to change. This is who I am. And this is how I talk. I love you and you can believe that or not. It’s your choice. But you can’t manipulate me. So, figure it out because this won’t work.” Continue reading BEING UN-OFFENDABLE
Do you ever wonder when Father God is going to begin pouring out His spirit on all men? Well, wonder no more. Step outside and start talking to people. Don’t preach to them, but listen to their experiences.
I have a friend who’s only been to church during one week of her life. It was when she was 14 yrs old. However, she and Father talk to each other every day and she has relied on Him all her life. I wrote about her in another article called “Knowing God“.
And I have another friend who is New Age, and yet she embraces my spiritual experiences and trusts any messages I receive for her. She was raised Christian but found the lifestyle too limiting spiritually. She calls God “the universe” but her spiritual understanding often mirrors mine. Continue reading HE’S POURING OUT HIS SPIRIT ON ALL MEN
I was working on a couple of my new books last night when fear attacked me. It said, “Will I offend someone? Can’t I write anymore?”
I smiled, cocked my head, and I chalked this up to another piece of information. The spirit of offense wants me to be silent.
You see, I received an explosion from an offended group a few days ago. I thought they were close friends and I had no idea what I’d written would offend them. Continue reading WILL I OFFEND SOMEONE? CAN’T I WRITE ANYMORE?
It’s sometimes difficult for me to scroll through my Facebook feed because it’s painfully obvious that I’m on a different path than most of my friends. And they are people I love.
So, here I am, always sitting on my own rock, somewhere off to the side of the beaten path. I’m staring out over my own private view which is absolutely amazingly beautiful. Continue reading I’M ON A DIFFERENT PATH
It was a weird phenomenon I didn’t expect. A conference of my peers and friends left me at home wondering whether to spend the money to go and be with them?
And I decided the answer was “no”. Why? Well, it has little to do with them, of course, and so much to do with me.
I knew there would be corporate worship. And then teaching time. All of it would be awesome and rewarding to anyone who went. Except, probably me.
No, I’m not a hardcore introvert. I actually have a very extrovert side which loves to engage with people. I especially love the one-on-one.
But. And there is a very big “but”. I can’t do it anymore. Continue reading I LOVE YOU, BUT I CAN’T “DO” CORPORATE ANYMORE
Yep, it’s true … someone laughed at me. On my birthday no less! Even during my birthday celebration! A friend picked out one of my character traits and laughed.
And I laughed too. It’s what you do.
Later, when the party was over and quiet time came, there was still a tiny arrow stuck in my heart and I contemplated it. Then I asked Father about tiny arrows. Are we to blame that some stick? Is it a flaw that this was hurting a bit? I don’t count myself easily offended. But am I? Continue reading SHE LAUGHED AT ME!
There are obvious and not-so-obvious stages of maturity in The Kingdom. And they cause a lot of friction because we are looking for unity of the faith and expect to see it inside our doctrines.
But that can’t happen when our faith is such a uniquely personal thing to each of us. After all, we created denominations so that like-minded people would worship together, and still the understanding within each member is different.
No one is the same. We grow at different rates and in different directions. Continue reading OUR STAGES OF MATURITY and ELITISM
I had a dream about the aftermath of my battle with religion.
I was in an abandoned section of the house where I live. It was like an attached apartment. In the kitchen was a lot of canned and packaged food sitting on a big table inside the oversized pantry. A visitor came through, someone I knew, and he needed dinner for his family. I invited him to help himself and he chose 3 items that would make a complete meal for him and his family. He was pleased and I was happy that I could be generous.
After he left, I began going through the apartment shadow boxing evil entities as I saw them. I’d say out loud “Ka-pow! Ka-pow!” as I punched them. And they were cleared out one at a time. After they were gone, there was movement in the corner which I attributed to Angels and let them be. Continue reading SABBATICAL FROM THE BATTLE