My transformation this year and last has been alarming, frightening, lonely, and yet most enlightening. The noise in my head has been equally extreme at times. In the beginning, when Hunny transitioned beyond the veil, I thought I’d require therapy. After all, we spent all our waking time together. It was going to be traumatic to learn a different way.
However, I pursued my therapy differently. I began with Father based on my lifelong belief and practice that he knows me better than anyone, is always with me, and always answers my questions and problems. I expected him to send me the teaching, guidance, and understanding I needed daily. And he has done so.
Yes, there were times I cried for days. Or screamed muffled into a pillow. And there were those times when the world appeared alien and I was terrified that I was losing my mind.
None of this was outside of being human. I understood that. This was transformation. Patience inside it was the hardest because I knew it wouldn’t settle down quickly.
Amazingly, none of my missteps cost me any great price. During this time, I faced a temporary battle with cancer. A battle it lost. And I sold our home and moved my small family.
Mostly, I think I became more silent than I was before. What can I tell anyone about transformation? There is a hellish landscape to it that we must walk through. And each of us walks a unique path through it. I did mine the way I have done everything. Alone with Father.
Now I’m focused on this battle for humanity we are facing and again, I’m looking to Father.
He keeps giving me Peace. He keeps telling me not to be concerned. Just keep following him and all will be well.
There is a huge division in the human species. Is it more than has ever been? I don’t know since I haven’t lived for centuries. It appears to be a fight between a controlling spirit with an army led by emotions, and a people of stubborn, traditional values following their intuition.
A fight between emotion and intuition? That seems weird since these have been steering me for two years; propelling me into transformation. As a witness to that conflict, its results are difficult to gain but amazing when achieved. Neither goes away. Both learn to live together appropriately with appreciation, respect, and love. The goal is to survive…better.
Oh, and now we have solar flares bombarding it all. Well, that’s just a manifestation of what we are creating!
Since Father keeps pointing me toward staying in Peace, that’s what I’ll do. Peaceful understanding mindsets are the only opinions that resonate in my spirit these days. Oh yes, it’s a wild ride! An epic battle! Always!
So, I send you Peace from my world which has finally stopped rocking and settled into abundant blessings.
Faith