Often statements like “You are dying” come from the analytical side of our brain. This is what mine said when I awoke this morning. He’s really good at adding 1 + 1 + 1 and coming up with a conclusion.

Dry sinus’s from the furnace blowing had given me a slight headache, my muscles were stiff from not moving all night, and my eyes were blurry. It was a bit slow going to the coffee pot. So, Analy’s lovely voice decided to add it all together and give me his conclusion. (“lovely” – yeah, sarcasm comes early too 🤣)

I’m going to call my analytical side “Analy” for the moment, just because my creative side is now awake and chuckling. Well, heck, I have to agree Analy’s a better name than Satan, which is another name Analy’s been called when his love-less controlling has taken his linear thinking too far into his monster abilities.

Anyway, I’ve heard him come to those conclusions many times in my life. And sometimes his analysis is just so off base that it’s actually blatant lying. But he can’t help himself. He’s always calculating and analyzing, and without my creative reasoning side chiming in right away, Analy had no bridle.

For being such a smart guy in math and science, you’d think Analy would learn to season his statements with all the other possibilities. Like optical illusions, or constantly changing conditions. But no, sometimes, like this morning, he’s just quick to blab the first conclusion that comes to him. And then off-handedly change his tone without apologies after coffee, contemplation, and awakedness have set into the whole bodily function.

For just a second, on my way to the coffee pot, Analy’s statement brought a tear to my eye and I felt victimized. I thought, ‘I can’t die yet, I have too much to do”. But that’s about the time “Crea” woke up (I’ll give my creative reasoning side a name too 😉) and chimed into the internal conversation.

Ahhh, I gotta love Crea, she’s so full of understanding. Her voice is truly beautiful, and that’s no kidding. I don’t know what I’d do without her. She said, “Analy’s just lying again, don’t pay any attention to him” and I realized that she was right. And I sighed.

It could have been another close call. I could have repeated Analy’s words without thinking. And that would have injected them into my constantly out-flowing vibrations that manifest my life. Thankfully, out of all the wrong things Christianity taught me, a right thing came out of it. That is to watch very carefully what words I let slip out of my mouth. They are the atoms in the molecules of life I’m creating for myself.

I’ve also learned to catch some of Analy’s off-handed conclusions in mid-air so they don’t embed themselves into my chamber of beliefs. Oh boy, they can slip in there so easily without my notice. And then its literal hell on earth getting them cleaned out. They’ll cause me to react in completely messed-up ways that I haven’t chosen through free will. And then manifest by creating hell in a handcart around me. They slipped in there a lot when I was a child and didn’t know the dynamics of this system. I’m still finding and cleaning some of those out. Sheesh! But Crea is smart too. She knows how to “spirit” them out and tattle on Analy.

So, it’s taken my whole life to put all these pieces together and actually begin to be free to exercise my true free will. Life is amazing now. It’s like finally finding the Garden of Eden and living there without the ignorance Adam & Eve had. Boy, they really didn’t have a clue what hit them.

Yeah, it’s kinda too bad that it takes us so long to “get” the processes of this life. I can only imagine what I could have created in this life if someone had known and taught me about this instead of the deflecting superstitions of religion.

But here we are. Me, Analy, and Crea. And it’s a pretty darn great life now that I’ve come to really know them and utilize them in the areas where they are awesome.

I hope you’re enjoying your coffee too this morning.

Faith