I stood in the shower seething with anger and hatred almost as though it had jumped on me when I read the blog article by one of my friends, Praying Medic, “Learning to Love Your Abuser“.

He had described with much humility, how he felt anger and hatred sometimes toward abusive people, and that we need to learn to love them because it is their only cure.

I completely related to the article and remembered my own moments of anger and hatred.  It was strange how that in the minutes it took me to read the article, my emotions took a nose-dive, and I couldn’t shake it off as I got ready for work. I wanted to yell at everyone, and run far away from people.

Finally I stopped sudsing and let the water flow freely over me.  I closed my eyes and turned in my spirit toward Father to ask Him what was happening.  That was when He reminded me of the revelations I’d been struggling with in my writing about negative emotions and spirit entities.  “How did I show you to deal with them?” Father asked.

I remembered.  The resolution came by seeing my own Identity in Jesus’s face.  My reflection was in His eyes.  “You’ve been looking through a glass darkly, but now face to face with Him you see clearly”. He said again.

So I imagined myself standing in front of Jesus looking into His face. In moments I was flooded with Him, His peace, His joy, and He made my heart sing.  He reflected my own Identity, my gown, my crown, my ring, my sword, my whole beautiful package.

I was free.  Anger and hatred were far away, and I breathed a cleansing breath.  I could finish my shower and get to work.

While driving, I thanked Him for my job.  It pulled me away from my computer and into a different scenario which was a blessing on this confusing day, and I was grateful.

At work I was stationed with a new employee and he regaled me with a magical story of visions in time that he’d experienced a couple years ago.  He’d been transported over and over, from one life to another, into different worlds, and different realities.  Each one of the approximately forty journey’s, was a revelation for his heart, and in the last one he stood face to face with God in humble grace and love. I was thrilled to hear it.

Now I realized that the day’s activities had actually confirmed Father’s revelations He’d inspired within my own writing.  I’d been wrestling with it because I needed a practical application experience as confirmation. Now I had exactly that, and it proved to me that what I’d been writing was no less than truth.

I can now reveal without hesitation, that negative emotions like anger and hatred are spirit entities, demons, if you will.  They are not our own emotions, nor are they our own emotions being influenced.  Negative emotions themselves are actually demons and they do not belong to us.

I’m not going to go into all the particulars here, but we cannot simply shake them off.  They are strong and powerful, and they don’t leave easily.  We have fought them ineffectively because we see them as our self.  We hear their words whispered in our ears as our own thoughts.  They are not us.

I realize this sounds like I’m advocating sloughing off our own responsibility, but our attempts to take responsibility and deal with anger and hatred through will power, or behavior modification, or psychotropics, or anger therapy have minuscule success.  Anger management classes just don’t solve the issue and the problem is growing rampant.  Maybe we should consider that we’re missing something.

We are in fact trying to modify the behavior of demons and it doesn’t work.  Even deliverance ministries have difficulty with these particular monsters.

Father had said to me, the antidote is seeing Jesus face to face, to stop seeing through the glass darkly.  He alone came to love the world and set us free.

When I did what He’d said, I was set free.  So from now on, I am going to remember to look into His face and see my reflection in His eyes.  After all, He is always standing right before me ever ready to look into my eyes, and fill me with Love.