When Hunny and I started off on a mini-vacation with our little motorhome, and things began breaking, I remembered Father’s words to me a couple months ago. “Nothing missing, nothing broken”. It spoke to me of wholeness and completeness and the effect of His presence.
But did He mean more than the completeness of my soul and spirit? Was that completeness also for our motorhome on this vacation? Or should I begin rationalizing because I live in a fallen world and this is the victimization I must expect?
I’ve been thinking too much. I’ve been thinking about loss, and in Father God, I have no loss. There remains nothing that anyone or anything can take from me. I have released it all. All means all. I won’t bore either of us with a list.
The other day I told Father God that if for some reason He took everything and everyone from me, if He lead me into complete and total isolation, for whatever reason, He Himself would be enough. And if not enough at the time, He would become so eventually. This is not because He’s all that would remain, but because He is truly all that I want and need. Continue reading LOSS: LESS IS MORE→
Back in the day, when Hunny and I were more immature, we’d have some rip-roaring episodes now and then. Father never condemned me for any one of them and as I look back now, I can see His hand in each one. They were how we learned to live with each other, give each other wide berth to be ourselves, and respect the strength we inherently possessed individually.
Honestly, neither of us thought our marriage would survive very long. We were both so strong-willed and assertive. The match was definitely equal.
From my seat next to Jesus, I turned to Him and asked, “How can I affect these current disasters? There’s a large hurricane headed for Florida and many fires burning in the northwest. And they aren’t exactly in my realm of influence, my kingdom. So, my efforts aren’t as effective as someone who lives there and has the situation sitting in the middle of their heart.”
I’d like to share with you one of the ways Spirit messages come to me from Father. He has many ways, but one He has used often is an “impending” feeling that won’t leave me. As though something is hovering over my head and heart. It’s similar to a person standing at the front door waiting for me to come and open.
Father is a gentleman. He isn’t rude and intrusive. And He often treats me with the same kind of respect that I approach Him. He knocks and waits for an invitation to speak.
Often the sensation is so strong that I can’t continue whatever chore or task I’m in the process of doing because the sensation doesn’t go away. That doesn’t mean that it can’t go away. It can. I used to walk away from it because I didn’t know what it was and I misunderstood it as a sort-of anxiety. But it’s not anxiety at all.
It’s sometimes difficult for me to scroll through my Facebook feed because it’s painfully obvious that I’m on a different path than most of my friends. And they are people I love.
So, here I am, always sitting on my own rock, somewhere off to the side of the beaten path. I’m staring out over my own private view which is absolutely amazingly beautiful. Continue reading I’M ON A DIFFERENT PATH→
It was a weird phenomenon I didn’t expect. A conference of my peers and friends left me at home wondering whether to spend the money to go and be with them?
And I decided the answer was “no”. Why? Well, it has little to do with them, of course, and so much to do with me.
I knew there would be corporate worship. And then teaching time. All of it would be awesome and rewarding to anyone who went. Except, probably me.
No, I’m not a hardcore introvert. I actually have a very extrovert side which loves to engage with people. I especially love the one-on-one.
My Momma had a notebook that assisted her in following Holy Spirit.
She took it to church stuffed with lyrics, choruses, hymns, and worship songs. Some pages are from old hymnals, but others are typewritten sheets or handwritten scraps on the back of old browned pieces of paper.
There are obvious and not-so-obvious stages of maturity in The Kingdom. And they cause a lot of friction because we are looking for unity of the faith and expect to see it inside our doctrines.
But that can’t happen when our faith is such a uniquely personal thing to each of us. After all, we created denominations so that like-minded people would worship together, and still the understanding within each member is different.
