It’s what Father spoke to my heart on a particularly hard day. I wasn’t handling grief well. Rather, I was sinking deeper into its pit of heartache. And it was actually hurting me. That’s when I knew it was doing damage to my body and I would suffer more than heartbreak.

When they say heartbreak, remember that there are hormones speeding to your heart and they are doing what you’re saying. They are breaking your heart.

Don’t forget that. Ever. That word is your clue to stop doing what you’re doing in that moment. And if you don’t know how, cry out to Father. He always knows.

So, when I cried out to him, it wasn’t minutes later that friends pulled up to visit. Friends are amazing. They love you and want to know everything. And still love you. Then you can laugh and discuss other things that change the landscape of your thoughts. It’s wonderful

After they left, those black hooks of grief were swirling around my head threatening to gash me some more. But no sooner did I notice them than a friend called. And once again I was swept away in the love and the different landscape of reality.

Just before bed, I asked Father what my key was to stopping those black, grieving hooks from swirling and instantly he said, “Remember you’re a New person. And you need to get to know her.”

It pierced my mind and I understood so much more than just the words. It also meant that I was still all those things I was with Hunny. And all the things I was through all the stages of my life. But now I was building a newer version of me. Adding on to all the old, and painting creatively new colors to display my Identity. This was an adventure laying before, waiting for me to get to know this beautiful creature.

We are New every day.

Faith