In a place of silence and peace, I can hear Father speaking to me and the conversation becomes very intimate. That’s because He knows every thought I have, often better than I know myself.
Sometimes we humans have unacknowledged thoughts and reactions hidden in foggy imprints from the past. These are impressions we never told anyone and barely noticed ourselves.
For instance, that glance when my friend took my seat in high school. It registered in my heart and became a basic point of reference for subsequent glances in my life. After four decades the glance in high school is forgotten, but the standard it created is still weighing future reactions.
Father sees it and knows it lives deep in my bones. He remembers. And when I am confused by my own impressions, I can sit with Him and He will guide me to change hidden standards, or erase old judgments, and finish forgiving.
If I am willing to sit quietly, I will find out secrets within myself and secrets that Father holds dear. Secrets aren’t shared openly. They are shared intimately, and very quietly.
If we want secrets, then we must be willing to pay the price of intimacy. It is solitary silence.
amen , and fortunately i learned early on to yield my entire thought -life to the Lord , as in 2 cor.10: 5 . i do this whether in present time or , often , after the fact ; as i am easily distracted in the constant ‘ tug-of -war between my human nature and my divine nature . i now, have learned to better do this by seeing myself standing before the Lord w/ the eyes of my heart ; which i have learned : this is how we use our new creation eyes. since it is written ‘ we shall all stand before the judgment seat of Messiah’ ; l have learned it is far better to go there now, than to wait for eternity to stand there , when it is too late to come back to bring victory to life , here
I totally agree. I came across this scripture years ago and have been praying into it ever since:
Psalm 19:12-14
12 Who can understand his errors?
Cleanse me from secret faults.
13 Keep back Your servant also from presumptuous sins;
Let them not have dominion over me.
Then I shall be blameless,
And I shall be innocent of great transgression.
14 Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
Be acceptable in Your sight,
O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer. NKJV
So many times He’s shown me things in my heart that I didn’t know were there. For years my husband said that he felt rejected by some of my actions, but I could not see that rejection at all and just thought he was being overly sensitive. Then Abba opened my eyes one day and let me see it clearly.
I was so devastated by my actions that I wept for three days and prayed before garnering the courage to ask my husband for forgiveness.
Since then I almost daily ask Abba to uncover my secret faults and help me be fully His.
Thank you for sharing this!