I grew up knowing Santa wasn’t real from a very young age. It had nothing to do with a church we attended. It was simple research in the encyclopedia. My parents had discovered there were lots of lies hidden behind common traditions and the general public didn’t know about them.
I didn’t grow up feeling denied the fantasies and fun that other children got. Those were clearly mainly about getting presents and stuff.
Instead, my parents instilled in me a kind of reverential respect for questioning everything and researching the truth. It’s a huge reason I’ve traveled a widely diverse path where there were no boundaries I couldn’t cross, and therefore I had no need to rebel against my parents. However, my journey puzzled older church folk, family, and childhood friends who have thought I’ve always rebelled against everything from God to basic common sense. Or even excused me simply as a mean-spirited thing.
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But things I’ve discovered through the years have literally upended most of the ways we, as a society, understand scripture and God and everything else. And they encouraged me that there is so much to learn with a simple effort and desire. However, it requires a lack of fear and boundaries which is truly rare. Therefore I’m thankful for this core that my parents gave. Their gift.
There is no present in the world of more value than the moment you uncover a hidden truth all by yourself. Each time its a pearl of great price.
And yes, they have a price. Those pearls will isolate you from others, make you the weird oddball who won’t conform and accept the commonplace. You’re the troublemaker who’s constantly rocking the boat and most people will avoid you at one point or another. Even those who embrace you wholeheartedly when you’re rocking the same boat they want to rock. But when your lack of boundaries finds their favorite sacred cow and tips it over without fanfare, then most people walk away.
I understand that. I’ve had a few, myself. And it takes a minute to adjust when those cows flop over onto the ground.
Our culture is absolutely saturated with false sacred cows and they are embraced as holy and worshipped in droves. That includes both sides of the political spectrum, the whole religious arena, health practices, financial models, and personal relationship paradigms. Almost every moment in every aspect of people’s lives is controlled by their beliefs and ideas about these things. And it’s completely mind-boggling how much of it is absolute garbage constructed by greed to keep us ignorant. Because ignorance is control. Even the stuff we’ve been told is false…is false.
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So how do I know when I’ve reached the truth in a subject? Well, quite often I’ve settled for plateaus on my way to the next level. Because honestly, there is no stopping point. Truth isn’t a finite point where I can stop and say “This is Truth, right here” because there will inevitably be more. It’s an ever-widening perception that can’t be conceptualized in one place.
I asked Father God how all Truth can ever be grasped and he answered. “I AM”. And his voice reverberated through all time and space.
Inside I AM is all creation, knowledge, understanding, power, wisdom, love…….the list goes on forever. I AM is all.
Blessings today,
Faith
Thank you for sharing this! I used to get many invitations to speak in churches, but little did anyone realize, I was dying inside and in such bondage. However, when the Holy Spirit set me free, and I began to testify to the grace and goodness of God, people began to get get nervous.
Today I walk in freedom and whole I don’t have much of a platform, there is no better life and I experience exactly what Jesus promised: “So if the Son sets you free, you shall be free indeed.”
Oh, how I know that feeling! Exactly as you said, “dying inside”. Thank you for sharing that part of your journey to freedom. Blessings, Faith.
thanks for sharing! Im in a breaking away myself. its exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time. Its a shedding of this persona thats defined me since I was a teen. My own ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ that is leading me closer and closer to the true Light of who He is and who I am in Him. blessings!