As I studied hard on the details of meeting a friend for the first time in 17 years, I struggled. My plans weren’t coming together. None of them. And the frustration began building into a crescendo. All because I couldn’t figure out the perfect time and the perfect setting.
Suddenly I was overwhelmed with my disappointments and began crying. The tears turned into an out-of-control downward spiral, scaring me. What was happening? It was the strangest thing.
So, I chalked it up to being a new widow suffering grief. It’s my current Get-Out-Of-Jail-Free card. I don’t use it often because it insults my intelligence and my Father’s goodness to me. But I used it this time because I couldn’t explain my spin-out of emotions.
I asked Father what it was all about.
But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare. Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives
2 Peter 3:10-11 NIV
The next morning Father put this scripture before me as though he was saying “Look, this is why”. And at first, I couldn’t see the correlation. But in his faithfulness, he shone the light of understanding into my mind.
The overflow of emotions had come like a thief. A day of reckoning. Sneaking in unannounced. Pouncing when I least expected them. And the heavens of my lofty ideals crumbled and disappeared before my eyes. My ego was devastated and destroyed by my internal fire as I watched everything about my plans be laid bare.
Then I remembered that THIS is not The Way. It isn’t how things are done in The Kingdom within. There, things come through Spirit and its inspiration. The magic happens that way.
I should be the kind of person who keeps that in mind at all times. Remembering his goodness to me and keeping my kingdom active in that very holiness. THAT is how I live a Godly life.
Oh, how he amazes me and guides me.
Blessings,
Faith
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